Saturday, January 9, 2010
Coming Soon!
Some exciting news and changes are coming soon! The new background and buttons were just the beginning! I hope that now that the Christmas season is over I will be able to blog more often again and there will be a few neat changes and surprises to keep your eyes out for. With the travelling done for a while, I'll be able to be a better blogger I hope. ;)
Friday, January 8, 2010
Nov. - Dec. 2009 recaps, Part 2
Day before yesterday I posted about my new baby nephew and my sister's visit during hunting season.
The next exciting thing that happened was going up there for Thanksgiving. My sis spent it with her hubby's fam. but I got to see everyone else. I wrote this shortly after returning home from Thanksgiving: My mom has been fighting breast cancer for 8 years. She has half a dozen large tumors the size of grapefruits in her abdomen. Where her right breast was there is an oozing scar tissue hole in her chest. She had had a lumpectomy over 7 years ago and it didn't work- the cancer was already in the lymph nodes and just came back to eat the breast off and leave a gaping hole. Her right arm therefore is swollen and barely functions because it's pretty much cut off from her body. She has tried more different cancer treatments than I've ever heard of in the last 8 years. Her left breast is a tumor. She is on super doses of mega painkillers and it barely touches the constant pain she's in. She can't sleep anymore, just rocks in the recliner all night with tears streaming down her face, humming to herself to keep from sobbing out loud. She takes care of the 2 story farmhouse, dad's pigs and other farm critters when he's working late. She only has one working hand (her left- she's ..was... right handed) and tries to do everything with it. I told her she needs to stop trying to do everything and she started crying and said she can't. She said, "I can't stop! When I stop it means I've given in to dying and I can't give in or I will die!" She can't do any of the finer things she loves. She's always loved to sew and she cries because she cannot sew anymore. She cannot make it to the city because it hurts too much to be in the car. So she only travels between her home and her mom's to help her mom. Yes she takes care of her mother!!!
Her mom, My nana, is not well either. My Grandpop died July 1st. September 7th my Nana fell off a ladder. She was hanging curtains. She broke her leg. She was hospitalized. She wouldn't eat so they put in a feeding tube. She was finally released. She's in a wheelchair now. My mom and Nana are the strongest women I know and to see them both so weak and helpless sucks the hope right out of a person.
Unless God does a miracle, this will be my mom's last Christmas. Maybe Nana's too. Seeing them both at Thanksgiving brought that home for me.
Right now I'm in a bit of pain myself. I have a head cold or sinus infection or something- my eyes are draining, my mouth itches, I can't breathe, my snot is yellow, and something else showed up last night. My kids are not sleeping well and I'm in pain head and abdomen and up with littles all night. When I'm sleep deprived or physically worn down (right now I'm both) it's very difficult for me to keep my emotions in check.
I was have been in a bad place emotionally with this. It's so hard to see those I love hurting so! I'm a fixer- I want to fix everyone. I want to hug them and hold them and make it all better. I want to make the bad things go away. There are things you just can't kiss away...
The kids got sick when we got home from Thanksgiving, one right after the other, and followed shortly by me as I mentioned in the quoted portion above. Then my poor husband got sick too. We were sick most of December and got better RIGHT before Christmas! Barely in time to go up to my family's for Christmas. Which I will continue in another post so I don't bore your eyeballs right out of your heads. ;) Have a great weekend!
The next exciting thing that happened was going up there for Thanksgiving. My sis spent it with her hubby's fam. but I got to see everyone else. I wrote this shortly after returning home from Thanksgiving: My mom has been fighting breast cancer for 8 years. She has half a dozen large tumors the size of grapefruits in her abdomen. Where her right breast was there is an oozing scar tissue hole in her chest. She had had a lumpectomy over 7 years ago and it didn't work- the cancer was already in the lymph nodes and just came back to eat the breast off and leave a gaping hole. Her right arm therefore is swollen and barely functions because it's pretty much cut off from her body. She has tried more different cancer treatments than I've ever heard of in the last 8 years. Her left breast is a tumor. She is on super doses of mega painkillers and it barely touches the constant pain she's in. She can't sleep anymore, just rocks in the recliner all night with tears streaming down her face, humming to herself to keep from sobbing out loud. She takes care of the 2 story farmhouse, dad's pigs and other farm critters when he's working late. She only has one working hand (her left- she's ..was... right handed) and tries to do everything with it. I told her she needs to stop trying to do everything and she started crying and said she can't. She said, "I can't stop! When I stop it means I've given in to dying and I can't give in or I will die!" She can't do any of the finer things she loves. She's always loved to sew and she cries because she cannot sew anymore. She cannot make it to the city because it hurts too much to be in the car. So she only travels between her home and her mom's to help her mom. Yes she takes care of her mother!!!
Her mom, My nana, is not well either. My Grandpop died July 1st. September 7th my Nana fell off a ladder. She was hanging curtains. She broke her leg. She was hospitalized. She wouldn't eat so they put in a feeding tube. She was finally released. She's in a wheelchair now. My mom and Nana are the strongest women I know and to see them both so weak and helpless sucks the hope right out of a person.
Unless God does a miracle, this will be my mom's last Christmas. Maybe Nana's too. Seeing them both at Thanksgiving brought that home for me.
Right now I'm in a bit of pain myself. I have a head cold or sinus infection or something- my eyes are draining, my mouth itches, I can't breathe, my snot is yellow, and something else showed up last night. My kids are not sleeping well and I'm in pain head and abdomen and up with littles all night. When I'm sleep deprived or physically worn down (right now I'm both) it's very difficult for me to keep my emotions in check.
I was have been in a bad place emotionally with this. It's so hard to see those I love hurting so! I'm a fixer- I want to fix everyone. I want to hug them and hold them and make it all better. I want to make the bad things go away. There are things you just can't kiss away...
The kids got sick when we got home from Thanksgiving, one right after the other, and followed shortly by me as I mentioned in the quoted portion above. Then my poor husband got sick too. We were sick most of December and got better RIGHT before Christmas! Barely in time to go up to my family's for Christmas. Which I will continue in another post so I don't bore your eyeballs right out of your heads. ;) Have a great weekend!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Redecorated! :D And new button!
Did you see? I redecorated the blog! Annnnd may present to you my new blog buttons? The first is for this blog and the second is for my reviews and giveaways blog. Enjoy (and take one or both for your sidebar if you would like!)
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
My nephews! Lots of pics of new baby nephew!
These are my nephews:
The big one is J who's 5 years old and the little one is G who was a whopping 5 weeks old in that picture! Some of you might remember I babysat J while G was making his grand debut. ;) This is one of little G's first on-camera smiles! Aww! My sister's family moved back up North right after G was born so this was the first time I'd seen him since then. My hubby went hunting up there and Sis came down with the kids and spent nearly a week here with me, which is when the above pic was taken.
My sis got her much hoped for VBAC with little G and he was born on September 1st... BARELY! He was almost an August baby but decided to hang out in the birth canal for a while first. After giving birth, my sis went home and had a nap. Then, even though we offered to drive J back there or keep him another night, they decided to drive here to get him instead. So I got to hold baby G just hours after he was born! What's that? I didn't post pics when he was born? Oh my how rude of me! Well here you are... Enjoy! ;)
Sis was changing his diaper, which woke him up and I couldn't resist some pics of his cutie little face with those teeny eyes open!
Isn't he cute?!
So as to get you nice and confused by trying to clarify, when hubby went up there to hunt in October, the kids and I went with him and then stayed at my parents' house, where my sis and her fam were living temporarily, and then sis and I carpooled back HERE to my house, which usually takes 6 hours but tends to take more like 8 or 9 with a newborn. :p Then sis stayed almost a week here and then drove back up there. She drove at night though on her way home and made much better time. I so prefer that drive at night too. Night = sleeping kids. Day = screaming bored hungry cranky cramped kids. Night is better. Way better. Except that USUALLY, at all non-hunting-season-times, it's my hubby who is actually driving. Day = awake alert driver hubby. Night = Cranky bored stiff tired falling asleep hubby. *sigh*
So while I was up there, before sis and I carpooled back here, I got some pics of my parents with their grandkids. Nephew J was being stubborn and did NOT want to get in the picture so he was being a total monkey and kind of obnoxious the whole time. He also would not relinquish my mom's reborn doll he and Chicklet had been fighting over since they woke up long enough for a picture. Bug was trying to go limp and slide to the floor off Grammie's lap because he was bored how long it was taking. (FYI anything longer than a milisecond of holding still is like torture for him. Boys!) Baby nephew G was screaming because he wanted some yummy mama-milk and Grampie was obviously not lactating. Chicklet was tired because she got a grand whopping 2.3 hours of sleep the previous night because it was just too exciting to be at Grammie and Grampie's house, so she looks kinda zombie-ish and must have left her smile in bed. My dad was trying to jiggle baby G to calm him, scold nephew J for being a pill, and smile for the camera all at the same time. My mom was laughing at nephew J's antics and didn't seem to notice Chicklet falling asleep beside her, Bug sliding off her lap, or baby nephew G screaming himself purple. *sigh* Oh well, it's a family memory. We all know how pictures go with kids. The more kids the more funny facial expressions and outtakes! Lol! Oh, and Dad was in his just-fed-the-farm-critters clothes and Mom was still in the sweats she slept in but they were sweethearts and humored an impromptu first-thing-in-the-morning photo. So here are the pics from that adventure:
Fast forward to Thanksgiving! I didn't get to see my sis or nephews at all when we went up there for Thnaksgiving because they spent Thanksgiving with my sister's inlaws.
Christmas is a post all it's own, but I'll leave you with a comparison shot of baby nephew G from Christmas so you can see how much he GREW in the 2 months I didn't see him! That's his dad holding him, and yeah, my BIL IS as goofy as he looks! Hehe... (Hope he doesn't read blogs...) ;)
The big one is J who's 5 years old and the little one is G who was a whopping 5 weeks old in that picture! Some of you might remember I babysat J while G was making his grand debut. ;) This is one of little G's first on-camera smiles! Aww! My sister's family moved back up North right after G was born so this was the first time I'd seen him since then. My hubby went hunting up there and Sis came down with the kids and spent nearly a week here with me, which is when the above pic was taken.
My sis got her much hoped for VBAC with little G and he was born on September 1st... BARELY! He was almost an August baby but decided to hang out in the birth canal for a while first. After giving birth, my sis went home and had a nap. Then, even though we offered to drive J back there or keep him another night, they decided to drive here to get him instead. So I got to hold baby G just hours after he was born! What's that? I didn't post pics when he was born? Oh my how rude of me! Well here you are... Enjoy! ;)
Sis was changing his diaper, which woke him up and I couldn't resist some pics of his cutie little face with those teeny eyes open!
So as to get you nice and confused by trying to clarify, when hubby went up there to hunt in October, the kids and I went with him and then stayed at my parents' house, where my sis and her fam were living temporarily, and then sis and I carpooled back HERE to my house, which usually takes 6 hours but tends to take more like 8 or 9 with a newborn. :p Then sis stayed almost a week here and then drove back up there. She drove at night though on her way home and made much better time. I so prefer that drive at night too. Night = sleeping kids. Day = screaming bored hungry cranky cramped kids. Night is better. Way better. Except that USUALLY, at all non-hunting-season-times, it's my hubby who is actually driving. Day = awake alert driver hubby. Night = Cranky bored stiff tired falling asleep hubby. *sigh*
So while I was up there, before sis and I carpooled back here, I got some pics of my parents with their grandkids. Nephew J was being stubborn and did NOT want to get in the picture so he was being a total monkey and kind of obnoxious the whole time. He also would not relinquish my mom's reborn doll he and Chicklet had been fighting over since they woke up long enough for a picture. Bug was trying to go limp and slide to the floor off Grammie's lap because he was bored how long it was taking. (FYI anything longer than a milisecond of holding still is like torture for him. Boys!) Baby nephew G was screaming because he wanted some yummy mama-milk and Grampie was obviously not lactating. Chicklet was tired because she got a grand whopping 2.3 hours of sleep the previous night because it was just too exciting to be at Grammie and Grampie's house, so she looks kinda zombie-ish and must have left her smile in bed. My dad was trying to jiggle baby G to calm him, scold nephew J for being a pill, and smile for the camera all at the same time. My mom was laughing at nephew J's antics and didn't seem to notice Chicklet falling asleep beside her, Bug sliding off her lap, or baby nephew G screaming himself purple. *sigh* Oh well, it's a family memory. We all know how pictures go with kids. The more kids the more funny facial expressions and outtakes! Lol! Oh, and Dad was in his just-fed-the-farm-critters clothes and Mom was still in the sweats she slept in but they were sweethearts and humored an impromptu first-thing-in-the-morning photo. So here are the pics from that adventure:
Fast forward to Thanksgiving! I didn't get to see my sis or nephews at all when we went up there for Thnaksgiving because they spent Thanksgiving with my sister's inlaws.
Christmas is a post all it's own, but I'll leave you with a comparison shot of baby nephew G from Christmas so you can see how much he GREW in the 2 months I didn't see him! That's his dad holding him, and yeah, my BIL IS as goofy as he looks! Hehe... (Hope he doesn't read blogs...) ;)
Overwhelmed
I will bet you've noticed I've been barely here these last few weeks. You probably assumed it was because of Christmas, and well, it was, a little bit. But there's alot more to it. I will get to it, I promise! But I've decided to try not to spend so much time editing my posts. I lose hours doing that, getting them all non-confusing and pretty to post. I'll try to keep the typos to a minimum- LOL! But as for the rest... well I'm just gonna get it out and get back into the rythm of blogging and not worry so much about the finer editing. Hopefully I don't confuse you all cross-eyed trying to make sense of my ramblings. ;) I do tend to go on sometimes. And on. And on... Not that you would have noticed I'm sure... Yeah... K I'm gonna go now. Bathroom break. Then I'll be back to ADHD blogging. And rambling on and on. And on....
P.S. Hey I have GIVEAWAYS on my review blog! If you're into that whole winning free stuff thing, check it out! New one coming this weekend too! ;)
P.P.S Oh and speaking of giveaways, Givers and Giveaway Lovers, don't forget my big fun posty post of giveaway links galore! I keep it up all month and delete them out as they expire and new are added constantly so check it often and add any giveaways you're having! ;)
P.S. Hey I have GIVEAWAYS on my review blog! If you're into that whole winning free stuff thing, check it out! New one coming this weekend too! ;)
P.P.S Oh and speaking of giveaways, Givers and Giveaway Lovers, don't forget my big fun posty post of giveaway links galore! I keep it up all month and delete them out as they expire and new are added constantly so check it often and add any giveaways you're having! ;)
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